Call me , tonight . To say that you love me .

I still miss you, 

Know what ? I still misses you real loads, Imma tell myself not to think of you. You don't deserve anything from me. So what if i'm telling myself but not telling my mind & my heart this? How to let go for you? I know you just hate me, i know. So what? Hate me does it mean i shall hate you too? I hope i can. I don't wish to love you, you're just nothing. What's so good in you to make me like this? Trying real hard to let go, but how! By having others? I don't wish to do this, just treating so unfair to others only. I'm not like you, can let go so easily and fall in love w other girls. Treated me as a toy, hot & cold to me. I don't wish for anything, only just be normal friends is enough. I know, we even friend also cannot be. But i don't care. Maybe this is better for you? I just love you that much, i don't know why either. You're not handsome or whatever shit. But why? god knows the answer. But i don't know. I pray god will tell me the answer, maybe i've done wrong on my previous life to know you, maybe it's my retribution. You'll get yours too. (: 

Had maths paper 2 today . 
end at 9.15. 
Slack at 104 with Nazri, Hakim, Hidayat, Rasyidi ( or sth ) , Helmi , Nazri's friend, Taufiq & for sure me & minghui.
Talk crap, joke ard.
til 11 plus, slowly one by one went off, 
Me , Minghui & Hidayat walk together. 
Hidayat cheated us to send him home. 
hahaha! 
then buy food. 
Minghui send me to bus stop . 
Then meet Mummy to have my breakfast .
nothing much.  :D